This has definitely not been an easy pregnancy. I should have known I couldn't go the whole nine months without any complications. The most recent being that I was diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes. It is not a severe case, so it shouldn't be an issue controlling it with diet alone. I know it could be a lot worse and I am thankful that this is all we're dealing with.
I went back and forth on whether or not to prepare for this little guy's arrival (yes, we're having a boy :-). A big part of me wanted to only get the absolute necessities, and then wait until after he was here to get anything else we needed. But I just couldn't do that. I know he doesn't know the difference, but I just couldn't ignore this growing baby inside me. God has given him to us, and I want to celebrate him. So his drawers and closet have adorable clothes in them, we've had one baby shower with another one in the next couple of weeks, and the car seat will be installed in just a few short weeks. I realized a few weeks back that I've actually planned more for this baby than I did for Hope. The Lord knew... I still struggle daily with the "what ifs," and most things said about Cookie after his birth are followed by thoughts in my head along the lines of "If he lives." But the Lord has gotten us this far, and I know that no matter what happens, He'll continue to see us through. There's nothing else for me to do, but to hold on to that promise and take it one day at a time.
God Bless! I'll be praying for God to hold both of you in his gracious arms. Blessings xxx <3 Nadia
ReplyDeleteHolding my breath with you. All my love.
ReplyDeleteHello Hope's Mommy, I am new to the blogging world and to this site. But I have signed up yesterday and still trying to get my blog signed up. It is, MelissasChatterboxing. I am a Christian and I am very passionate about this kind of loss. I lost a precious full term new born little boy named Bryan, believe it or not 23 yrs ago. My husband and I were young. I am 48 now. I miss him everyday and think about him all the time. I still grieve, it's just not quite as hard and it comes and goes.(if that makes any sense) I got pregnant one more time. I could not have anymore after he was born. I was blessed with a beautiful boy named Clay Michael, and he now 22. I know Exactly what you are going through. You will make it!!!! God will sustain you! Do the best you can to take one day at a time. I used to talk to my belly at night before I went to sleep. I would rub my belly and pray for him or her and tell them how much we loved them and we would see them soon! That helped me to sleep a little more peaceful. I will pray for you and your baby. If you would like to talk more, please feel free to write me anytime. I live in North Carolina. God Bless You,Melissa Smith
ReplyDeleteGreat post :-) I'm Heather and I was wondering if you would be able to answer my question about your blog! If you could email me at Lifesabanquet1(at)gmail(dot)com that would be great!
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